Yes you were. Why do you think Kain and I always spent time with you? Why do you think Riley took time to bring Kain to you every time I had fallen ill or whenever Zak decided to show up? It wasn't just to protect him...it was because you fathered him. Riley couldn't have kids, Damien. Kain is and was every bit your son.

I removed my hand from his and reached up, cupping his face softly and pushing back some hair, You were always the one who stole my heart and the love I have for you didn't die with our son. In the four years he was alive, I never saw you smile so much. He was your fallen angel who happened to be your saving grace. Those memories are ones you need to bring up to get you through these hard times, including the happy memories of your daughter. Denying that those two children ever brought you happiness, joy and managed to change who you are in their short lives will only cause you to hurt more. Even Madyson and Mackenzie...they grew so fast and now...they are at collage and starting their lives...while I'm home alone looking at pictures. They changed who I am...how I act and how I see life. Life through the eyes of a child is full of innocence and love.

William walked over and poured Damien another cup of coffee, even placed two chocolate scones in between us.

Eat, son. Don't need you wasting away like Miss Thing over here.

William winked at me before walking away and whistling. I looked away, trying to hide my blush only to hear Damien laugh.