Ok... after reading a few comments here... I felt this was needed.

My grandmother [who I've never met, thank Goddess] was an alcoholic. And my mother fucking hated her. My grandmother was racist... and made my mom give up my brother [who I've also never met, just like my father] ... when my mom was 17, because she had him with a black guy. Keep in mind, my mom is lez, but she was... well... drinking. Drugs & alcohol make us do things we normally wouldn't. Like attack people. My godmom also used to be an alcoholic. And when my mom and her were together, my godmother would beat her. My mom drank socially... and when she was with this gal named Terri, she left me for a week, when I was about nine. They both stopped a few years ago, but I still believe I remember seeing my godmother drunk... though she had stopped drinking normally years earlier.

My mom's body looks terrible due to smoking cigarettes since she was about sixteen. And I'll be honest... the only drug... and I do mean the ONLY one I'd EVER even contemplate using is marijuana, but I've learned even it has side effects. And I don't need any more of those.

Yes... we all have things we're addicted to in one way or another.

Mine? Is music. Music is literally the only drug I need. Because when I actually listen? All of the negative bullshit lodged within my mind melts away. It fades, dissapears, vanishes, without a trace. This explains it [from the YouTube vid above, my fave artist, enya] --

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Malegnius -- 10 months ago

There is actually. You feel the music a lot more. Yesterday I smoked and put on Memory of trees. I could literally feel the energy moving around my body. It was incredible. Wonderful artist.
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Mac Bry -- 10 months ago

Believe me. I breathe music. And I'm straight edge. I'm not preaching, because I honestly believe everyone has their own things that make them feel good. Music is all I need. When I walk to the park w/ my headphones & just swing & listen to the music, that is euphoria to me. And I couldn't imagine being motivated to do most of the things I do if it weren't for music, in ALL of its forms, whether that be rock, rap, country, pop, new age, new wave or whatever. Music IS my drug. Everyone has one.


TheSandeteranians -- 5 months ago

Straight edge. .



Mac Bry -- 4 minutes ago

I'm not a "".

I'm bi.
And androgynous.
Get it right.

<3



Andrew Wonsmos -- 5 months ago

I don't think that could have been worded any better.
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Mac Bry -- 1 second ago

Thank you, seriously... someone else left this hateful comment, calling me a "", right below yours... I know it's been five months, but you replied to mine five months later... hoping it's ok. >.< But... thank you. I honestly appreciate it. And I hope you've been doing splendidly.

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Someone said on the forum that there was "no reason" to obstain from drugs & alcohol... I have a reason. Because I don't want to end up the same way so many others I've known have. I'm already bad off enough, as is clear by now. All I have to do is take care of myself. And iAm slowly working on that. And the only "drug" I need, besides my bi-polar meds, are a pair of headphones... and pretty much any song under the sun. And as I mentioned on Y.T. ... when I go to the park and just swing, or just get out and walk, or dance... when I'm listening to music and being active... iAm in heaven.

No drugs needed.

<3

p.s. ~ besides... thanks to my bi-polar, i_Already act like I'm on drugs much of the time anywayz. >.< It's strange... most people act odd when they take drugs. I act odd when I DON'T take mine... :3