Hello,

You may have noticed that i havent rped in a while now here or anywhere else, some may already know but my health is in a shitty situation right now

A few weeks ago i decided to call the doctor, i had issues breathing at night and constant chest pains, fast heart beats that kept me up all night and daily things became impossible.

After a checkup i was send to the hospital with emergency because they believed it was something wrong with my lungs, I only wished

In the hospital i endured several different checkups, aeveral bloodfests, scans rtc. It turned out i had an enlarged heart and a bad working left lyng chamber that didnt pumped enough blood through my body as it should. My body also held on too much water that prevented them to make a proper echo scan of my heart. I got transferred to a different hospital, attached to breathing devices and medication to cause me to pee all of the water in my body.

I was released after nearly a week. Supposed to follow treatment at a different hospital, but there was no more space for me for where i should have gone to. So now im staying with family, a body that at times make me feel as if im 86(im 46) a heart that at times goes crazy, causing chest pains after a walk, or sometimess less strainful acts. I am thankful if i can walk for 20 to 30 mins, because all of this wears me out.

I got now 6 different types of medication for different reasons, wich was first three but after todays doctors appointment it got doubled

I got an appointment planned to check whether its arteries that needs to be opened up either a small treatment that would keep me in the hospital for a day or a chance for surgery. An other option could be its a genetic issue with my heart and that would mean medication toake my life (hopefully) somehow back what it used to be. I miss the game of writing rps, but right now my body is telling me i cant. I hope to one day rp again, but right now its just too much for me. 

I hope you guys are doing well, i hope to get there too one day
Gerrit aka Goth