I sent the following PM to Jenny;

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I've been extremely sick and depressed lately. I wrote half of it, but I was about to faint and needed to get some rest. When I woke up it was 2 pm. I'm seriously sorry. I might have to take a break till I recover. I seriously apologize, and I know you deserve a helluva lot more than that. If you're furious with me i understand. This is what I had so far...

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Jenny. Dear, sweet Jenny... we meet again. Last time, I failed miserably. Honestly, as I mentioned before, loss and dissapointment have shrouded my career... one more in the line of many, right? Wrong. I'm looking to begin again, reinvigorated , and Jenny? Hate to break it to you kid, but you're step one on the staircase to MY redemption.....thank you.

I was born in a Manger on Christmas day.

Ok, you got me. I was born in some backwater, shit hole city in the south. The people there despised me, either due to how i looked so differently, or because I've never been one to hide the real me. I'm open about every part that makes me into the person i am today.

From birth my parents could tell I was different from the others. Halloween was my favorite holiday, as it was the one day of the year I could walk the streets, hiding nothing. Being an open book, my mom constantly had to comfort me, as the kids at school dragged me down. I could always count on her to be the one to pick me back up...while on the other side of the spectrum, my father would beat her each night for giving birth to a "", till she'd had enough and walked out.

Dad quickly brought in my babysitter as his "roommate". He stopped paying attention to me entirely, which I suppose was a miracle because it meant the torture had come to an end...

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I post the previous to display that I did try my best, but I've slept most of the last few days. I'm hoping the tag match will still take place, but I know this is the second time I've no-showed since my return... and I've only had three matches this go around, so yeah... I love this place more than any other fed, and I was seriously overjoyed to return, I had a bunch of ideas... I'm hoping this didn't ruin my chance... or worse, drop me off the roster.