Not backhanded, but way to be on the defensive. You're intelligent, but insecure. Insecurities aren't a bad thing, unless you let them cripple you. I let them cripple me to the point where I was drugged out most of the day. Only time I was sober was when I was looking for my pills. I get your jokes, most of the time, but that doesn't mean I feel the need to acknowledge them. You'd prefer your jokes to be esoteric, though. Wouldn't you?
And no, I literally mean when you're about to kill yourself as Bute predicted please call me. I want to watch you die.