Sage...Just her name ringing in my ears inundated me. I felt myself grow deranged as I ran to Jason, pushing him to a tree and dragging him up it with a menacing grin on my face. I felt his breathing grow shallow as I held him dangling in the air.

Don't speak of Sage and don't talk about my life like you know it oh so well Jason. Encase you forget from the last quarrel we were in, let me refresh your memory.

I stood holding Jason up for only a moment more before tossing his body to the ground near the frozen pond. I pulled his body up by his mere shirt before smiling once more and feeling a slight change in my body, it was a new feeling of rage.

I could break you if I wanted, I could make your brain and scrambled egg, I could snap your neck if I wished it. I should, you know why I should? You left me in a god forsaken house with a demented woman and her lover so you could get away. All I wanted was to go with you but you left me there alone. I took the ferocious beatings that you left me with Jason. I asked for your help when he was taking her away and you turned your back on me like a weakling, a piece of trash. All this is your fault!

I looked into Jasons eyes seeing the trepidation and rage. This wasn't me, I knew this had nothing to do with Jason or his lack of help in my life. I needed to stop, I had to stop. I shoved Jasons body down to thrust mine up and took a few steps back. With my back turned I could hear the perplexity it Jasons voice.

How...How did you do that?

Lift you? Toss you? Piss me off and it just happens Jay. I have an ungovernable rage to you for many things and now that I'm this...this thing I can't control outburst Jason.

Besides, don't talk to me about my mistakes with Zak and Marcus, you left someone you loved for no good reason. You gave up your son so you could be nothing more than a manwhore Jay. I can understand why no one trusts you, no wants to be around you, and why the only people who want to have anything to do with you are ignorant fans.

I let a sigh from my lips before closing my eyes. I felt Jasons hand clutch my throat and send me to the ground vigorously. My eyes opened to Jason holding me down by his hand on my neck and trying to pin me with the rest of his body. I knew to never talk of Micah or Justin but with this new found rage it just happened.


Jason...

The rage, it was back. I felt something change, my body felt like it was scorching as I looked up at Jason. A piercing screech came from my mouth and Jason fell back holding onto his head. I stood up, approaching him closer, his pain was intoxicating to me. No.....stop....


Mandii...!

I turned around feeling the fit of rage leave slightly and replace with a morning. I dropped to the ground on all fours and started to breath harder.

I'm sorry...