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Reggie Estrada · (07-23-2020)

July.23.2020

What is a champion?

Is it a person who holds a belt worth it?

Is it a tool to get someone over?

Is it a way to connect with the people of XWF?

Is it a tool to push someone up to relevance?

These are the questions i ask myself as the x-treme champion. It’s been only two weeks in and i’ve had this belt on my waist for this long, do i feel like a champion? sometimes i think i am, and sometimes i think i am more greater than person who holds something that is managed by who see’s it fit. I feel like, no matter what i do or say, i will never fit in with the people on any level no matter what. I sometimes feel like, what can I do to relate to the people here, how can i be popular and charismatic like them, how to feel like one of those cool kids in the cafeteria?

These are mere thoughts of Reggie and not of Wrestler82, outside of my face paint and a belt that is on my waist… lays a man who feel like he’s out of place. Out of my elemental purposes, i left my family behind to chase this non existent dream of being popular and loved by everyone as the name Wrestler82, that was given to me by John Black years prior. He bailed me out of jail, and got myself back on the scene of XWF.

Ever since then, my life has changed for the worst… and for the better… the worst is, being too involved with chasing belts that aren’t worth it, feeling like i am not connecting with the crowd, and having a succubus dictating on how i should live as a mere holder of something that even Hush Puppy can procure with proper channels. The better…. i guess being on the road again…The first question i ask is what is a champion?…

To me, it’s being able to hold something and promote the company, and it’s division up to the highest regard, and as you fans may know about me as a man who upset Hanari for it. Maybe as Reggie, i couldn’t hold up that man who can take it X-Treme, but Wrestler82… oh he can make sure he brings up that ultraviolet shit in an instant. As myself, i wouldn’t dare use a chair or become a bloodthirsty manic, but as Wrestler82… i’m surprised he isn’t in jail for excessive violence in a ring.

The second question is basically asking being worthy of being a champion, and that answer to me is… not really… as myself, i can go days and days of not being a champion; and pretend to be fighting for a contendership, and lose it very next night. BUT, as for Wrestler82 opinion… he thinks that yes, a belt proves you are worth the draw, and the bump in pay. Ever since held that belt for mere two weeks before his official title defense in Leap Of Faith, he’s always kept is eyes wide open for anyone who tries to jack him.

Could i reach out to everyone as Reggie aka myself… maybe not, and that is fine. If the adoption agency could’t reach out to me to see how i’m holding up, then it tells me that i’m just a mere shadow among the beautiful people. There’s a reason why i’m a loner… but as Wrestler82, he would LOVE to reach out to everyone he meets, but can’t seem to do it. He know’s fully that his time will come to an end as a champion, and once that happens he will either turn the whole arena into a crime scene… or will walk out of XWF, and never seek any pleasure out of thing he once loved years ago.

Can a belt push someone to relevancy AND be over for someone as myself? For myself, not really, i can be a Universal Champion in the next 48 months and nobody will recognize me at all, they will be like “WHO IS THAT GUY, WHY IS HE THE UNI CHAMPION?”. Maybe, my face will repeal all the new signees off to the other feds, and sink the company down into a whirlpool of bankruptcy… nah i’m joking about all that shit, but it still stands. But as Wrestler82, he managed to turn himself into most wanted man in XWF, just now he managed to kickout from Ari and made him cover his own decomposing body just now, he’s such a fucked up manic. He thinks that having one company belt, and another unsanctioned belt is going to make him a top star knowing full well that isn’t going to be the case; they don’t like him, and he needs to understand that he should be fighting the system of injustice.

Overall, I hate who Wrestler82 has become in my eyes. He’s sold himself a dream of making it big, and being a hottest act… but after Leap Of Faith…

He’s no more…

He’s dead…

Either he obtains or not…

I’m starting a new Phase as the Cult Of Personality… the outsider…

Long Live Wrestler82… it’s time to become the real me…

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