New understanding deepens with time brother sToRm. I sought understanding from all of creation and found it in all of creation. I never spoke wrong words only misunderstood them in my own mind. We are Gods certainly for we may create imagine but are we not imaginings of the God of the Gods. Are we not like children playing with daddy's toys. Yes indeed if we make mistakes how powerful would a King of King's of imagination be who that he did Imagine us.

Like toy thing's we get proud and imagine ourselves big and strong but our Imagination is a gift of our maker who delights in us doing well with it. when we imagine things in our own waking world of destruction or even in our very thoughts know it is better to leave them in your mind with our King of King's Lord. One master of all is better and you may have your own ways sToRm and that goes for all who read this good docktor's notes.

I am not perfect but trying better each day to hone my perfection. I base my successes on each past day of my own life and no one else should you compare yourself to but yourself. I compared myself to the Prince and The Baron but neither are me. I am a good docktor of trust in my self not your self but mine. Too much truth is never bad but in the seeking you may be harmed but all will get better in time.

My King I honor you with this that my Yes will be a yes and my No will be a No and No pledges will escape my mouth. Yes I love dear Helen with all of me for all eternity that is my wish my choice and my will to love her. In honor of her I give myself some space from her now and take peace in the silence and joy in day by day keeping the times and hours. No more chasing moon's and stars.

Helen I give you this yes that I am a man no God but I can dream and Imagine by the grace of my God who is our father in paradise. We can make paradise in this world to honor our fallen all of the fallen who have fell asleep with our brother the prince of peace. No I am not religious but I wanted to force a message from Helen and it was wrong I am deeply sorry.

My King is the only good one but he has grace that we may attempt to be like him and also like his son who in my eyes was good. I chose to be a Good Docktor of Trust to honor the Good Prince of peace and His Good King of peace that I may be King of my own castle God willing and that if I would be lucky one day, I would choose for my queen sweet Helen of Troy who is in my eyes perfect and though I do know none but my prince and his king are perfect we all strive to be good and God willing we will remain calm.

Peace be with you good viewers and may My prince speak only sweet things of you to our king. Love you amazing Helen your every bit is perfect just the way you are. When I think that I may have cause tears to fall from your eyes it only drives me to do better. When I think I may have broken your heart so many times it only propels me to remain sane, take my meds and try to carry on in my medical mission.

Your fire sends radiant light into my soul, your spirit soars above my bones and your blood is better not poured out. I read of your tales of wild wolf beasts who knew love it gave me heart. The one woman's hair smelled of vanilla, honey, and cinnamon. I try and pretend that is as your hair dear woman I miss reading your blurbs since they were windows into your mind.

Tender violet rainbows with golden and silver clovers fill my bones and blood purging the baron out my very being. In praise to my one high king I beg my prince to rid me of that darn baron and his vile back and forth games. I ascend Free.