She looks down at his hand. He was right, he wasn’t fighting her. He let her put a collar and leash on him and even let her cuff him to the table just to make her feel better. She also knew he was right she needed to eat. She pulled away from him clearing his plate and stuff taking it inside. Then she came back took a couple of bite as he grabs her hand again.

Christine: Yeah I was surprised you didn’t fight more than you did on the roof. But even then… it wasn’t much. Thought it was just cause you thought you would hurt me. Never thought it was cause you gave a damn. I figured you and her broke up. She was a rebound anyway who probably just used you to better her career. But enough about her. Please…still hurts.

Tears roll down her cheek as she talks about that subject. She tries to hide the pain but Matt knew to well it was there. She takes a couple of more bites before pulling away to put her barely touched food up. She returns and walks over to Matt.

Christine: Lets go for a walk.

She leaves the leash on the table, Un cuffs the cuff from the table but attaches it to her right hand. Now Matt was attached to her. He wouldn’t go no where without her. She still didn’t completely trust him yet but Matt notices she wasn’t fighting it as much as earlier when he kissed her. She wasn’t as cold either. She was on the border of his Christine and this new one she had become. She took a deep breath as they walked off the deck and down the path to the lake out back.

Christine: I couldn’t stay at the house anymore… to many memories. Simon saw how I was slipping into this and offered to take the kids. I go check on them… but on days when I can control this. I make sure they want for nothing. I haven’t said anything to them bad about you. I moved out here on the middle of nowhere. To this huge place. I hoped one day… I could bring the kids here. But I had to get past this first which hasn’t happened. I know I haven’t really let you out of the room sense we have been here and I have barely stayed in there sense I brought you a few days ago. But knowing Matt how hurt I was… I really didn’t want to take a chance to get hurt again.

They stop a moment and she looks at him.

Christine: I ain’t saying I am over what happened. It hurt a lot and still does. It isn’t something that goes away just like that. It isn’t like breaking a toy or tool that you can fix easy. No this is deep, very deep. What happened in USW… even FWAR… that wasn’t half as bad as this. We were married either of those times and the situation was so different. No this one was worse cause I was already hurt before and with everything that happened, just confirmed Vince was right. Who would want someone that was broken, Beaten, Bruised and used. No One. You try going thru what I did and the get rejected and see how it feels. You thought USW was bad. No Matt… this was worse. Way worse.

Tears rolled down her face as the pain was coming back… all of it. The rejection, The rape, the beatings she endured while away. She was hurting all over again