OOC: I have permission to use Jason being "Kid-Napped".




To every new day there are new worries to my mind. I had been driving all night to get to where I was going, yet, I wasn't thinking about getting there. My mind was overtaken with the thought that someone was planning to go against not only me, but everyone who stood with me. I couldn't stop thinking about the people I think are close, for me it was everyone who was standing with me against Helen. Then again, Cameron had been acting differently after finding out where the map Feline had given me lead. He ran off, not telling me. Could it really be that someone I hold close, someone I consider family could be the one to turn their back on me and just run? Why would he chose Helen's side? Things just didn't seem to make sense right now...



The car pulled up next to a steel fence. I looked out of the window and around, the place I considered home. It wasn't much, in fact, it was broken in every shape. The windows were boarded up and inside was unfinished. Still, I found myself coming here whenever I could, to get away, or just to feel like I was at home. I got out of the car and made my way to the fence, Arthes following close behind me and grunts following him.

I got to the door and opened it to a mess in the first room we stepped in. I knew Jason would be here after his match so my first thought, that son of a bitch. I moved around broken glass and beer bottles before making my way down the hall and to my room. It was untouched, the same as I left it. I rolled my eyes before slamming the door and walking back into the living room part of the old house. Arthes rushed around the room, searching for something. I rolled my eyes once more before picking up a shirt from the ground and laying it over the couch.

What are you looking for?

Food.

I watched as his nose practically was glue to the floor searching for food. He was similar to a dog when hungry, annoying and on the look. I shook my head before walking into a small kitchen part of the house. I pulled out a beer from the fridge before popping the cap on the counter a few inches from me. Turning back around, I noticed a red stain on the counter.

Arthes, did you cut yourself?

No why?

I looked over the stain before running my finger over it and looking down at it. It was blood, of that much I was sure, but whose. I let my hand drop to the counter before picking my beer back up and walking across the room. I looked over the broken glass, it was laid in a pattern that would suggest someone was hit in the head with something. I picked up a piece of glass before looking over the tip of one of the shards. It had gunpowder residue on it.

Shit, Jason!

I practically ran to his room. What I saw, I could not believe. The bed was leaning on the wall and a few pieces of bored were crushed next to it. I looked over the broken glass and cans that laid everywhere. His games were all to one side along with the bed and half of the room looked almost empty. My breathing started to get heavy as I looked around.




Jason! Damn it, answer me cock sucker!

I ran into the room that connected to Jason's and looked around. You could see where the fight took place due to the blood print on the wall that slid down. My heart pounded, my blood ran cold, my mind was blank. I hit the wall before running out and instead of going into the living room I took a right and went up the stairs. There were two rooms there and I knew by the small blood trail that was where they went next.

What happen to you...Damn it!

Mandii?

What?

Your brother, he is not here. I don't believe he is safe either.

I stopped at the top of the stairs and slid down the side of the wall. My butt hit the ground and my knees were pushed up to my chest. It looked like someone was looking for something, however, they didn't find that but my brother here. Trying to keep the ones I love safe and now, now my brother is gone and I have the feeling that his blood is on not only the walls, but my hands.

What gave you that Idea Arthes? Was it the blood?

My head turned to see Arthes coming up the stairs. A smile crossed my face before I bit my bottom lip.

Or the fact he had no answer.

I let my head rest back on the wall before pulling myself up and going into the first room upstairs. Glass covered the ground along with broken boards. I walked to the middle of the room before I saw a chain and small pendent. I picked it up, it was a small round pendant with markings inside.

Whats that?

It's Nerobel's necklace, she was wearing it when we left.

I gripped it in my hand before hearing footsteps in the room next to me. I shot a glance at the door before walking over near it. My heart pounded and my blood ran hot once again. Nerobel, it made sense. She knew Jason was my brother, that he was the person I cared for most in this world after Sage. She was the trader, not Cameron.

Nerobel, I swear to god if you do not tell me where my fucking brother is I will...

I froze. Nerobel wasn't the one sitting by the window looking out, she wasn't the one in the next room. I blinked a few times before walking into the room. a girl sat looking out one of the none bored windows. Her hair fell to one side and seemed to be dressed in nothing more than a bra and skirt.



Tilly...

Hello Mandii.

She turned her head to send a smile in my way. I walked closer to her before looking over the room. Again, it was untouched like my room.

I told him not to come back here, she wanted him, she took him, now he is gone. I told him to stay away from this place, he didn't think to listen. Now, now he is in danger.

What are you talking about? Who took Jason Tilly! Why didn’t you fucking help him!?

I felt my body rush to her side, pulling her hair, and pushing her head into the window. She let out a small whimper before pushing me away from her. I fell back slightly and caught myself.

Tilly!

I can't tell you her name, I can't tell you her face, all I can tell you is she wants Jason and wants you dead. You don't know her power and you don't know what she plans to do with Jason. I told him to stay away, that was me trying to help him. I'm sorry Mandii.

Sorry? You're sorry? My brother is missing, this place is covered in blood and glass, and you are sorry? You haven't felt sorry yet.

I darted to her once more, causing her head to hit to the glass again and causing blood to run down the side of her head. I picked her up, tossing her to the wall and watching as she slid down the wall.

You didn't help Cameron when he needed your help, I would love to see him be the one to kill you when you’re in you're original Siren state. In fact, I would gladly kill you myself when you reach your high point Mandii, just say the words.

She pushed back but this time I wasn't sent back. I sent her head into a picture that was hanging on the wall before being pushed back. I fell back on the glass from the picture, feeling some of the pieces push into my skin. Suddenly, a wolf three times my size was on top of me snarling. I heard Arthes run back down the stairs, gasping for breathing every second.



I didn't help Cameron? Wait, how did you know about...

She growled in my face, forcing my back down to the ground. I felt her breath chill the side of my face...I felt her fur against my skin...I felt the need to send a peice of glass into her side. I looked up at her before feeling my body run warm. My eyes changed and my hand reached for glass. Grabbing it, I sent it into the side of Tilly causing her to fall back in whimper.

You won't get to see me die if I kill you here.

I pulled her up in wolf form and sent her back to the wall. Suddenly, I could feet Arthes hand on my back. My eyes stayed focus on Tilly as I began to speak.

What?

You can't kill her, she is important to the war with Helen, she will help us.

How do you know, maybe you just like the way she looks out of wolf form, or, you just want to see her after she turns back.

I envisioned it, she is going to help us, you have to let her live Mandii. Let her go.

I dropped Tilly. Her body hit the ground hard and she turned back to human. I watched the blood leave her body as Arthes run to her aid. I walked into the other room, trying to cool myself. Picking up Jason's pack of smokes I took one out and lit it up before walking back down stairs. My humanity...It was drifting.

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My back leaned against the wall of the house as a smoke hung dry from my mouth. I took in a deep breath before letting the smoke out of my lungs. Closing my eyes, I began to remember. Jason was being beaten once more by our father while I watched through a crack in my door. When Jason would see the crack, he would call out for me to not watch. I remember blood coming from cuts on his body, his screams, then he would be dragged down the stairs, then, then it was my turn.

She will be fine.

I looked up at Arthes before nodding and looking back in front of me. He sat next to me, taking off his hat. He looked at the smoke in my hand before letting a sigh from his mouth.

You are starting to become more bird.

Huh?

You held her up with your wings and the rest of your body was beginning to change with the color of your wings.

I looked over at him, not remember any of that happening. I closed my eyes once more, trying, hoping to remember anything other than the blood on Tilly, but I couldn't.

Mandii...You are going to be less than happy for what I think you must do.

What I must do? What, the fact I have to change to a monster and have someone kill me?

You want the change to happen faster, from what I have seen it is going to be painful. Mandii...What is keeping you human?

I looked over at Arthes. His eyes filled with worry. I looked away taking another breath in.

Ally, Damien...Jason...Sage...

My head dropped and I could feel Arthes gaze on me.

You have to let them go...Mandii...You have to become the monster you don't want to in order to keep them safe.

I nodded my head. I would have to forget about my brother, Sage, Ally, and Damien if I wanted to become this. They were the only reasons why I was still the way I am. Jason was gone, dead for all I knew. Sage was taken, she was never coming back to me. Damine hated me for leaving him, for being like everyone else he was with, he could let go of me, it already felt like he was. As for Ally, setting her on fire this week should give me an excuse as to why she shouldn't miss me. Suddenly, everyone I was staying human for appeared to be gone or on their way out. I would be alone...I would be a monster...Then I will be dead.

Take care of Tilly.

I pushed up from the ground and dropped the smoke on the way up.

Where are you going?

I'm saying good-bye to the last person who is keeping me human. I keep promises, but now I must break one.

I began to walk away but the sadness in Arthes voice stopped me.

Mandii...

What?

You need to say good-bye to them all...

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Hello?

Marcus.

You aren't supposed to call, in fact, you shouldn't even think about calling anymore unless you plan on crawling back.

Just put Sage on the phone.

And why would I do that.

Put her on the phone.

No.

Let me talk to her one last time, after this, you will not hear from me again.

Silence flooded the other end of the call. I leaned my head on my car window, rain hitting and making it cold. I closed my eyes, he wasn't going to allow me to say good-bye to her, he wasn't going to let me tell her I love her...

Mommy?

My heart skipped and tears coated my eyes. I smiled, Sage's voice covering my ears.

Hey baby.

I miss you mommy.

I miss you too baby girl.

When are you coming to pick me up.

A tear rolled down my cheek as I looked out the window of the car.

Baby, you have to stay with daddy from now on ok?

But Mommy...

Do mommy a favor, everyday you get up out of bed and look up at the sun, smile. I might not be with you in person but I will always be with you in your heart. Don't give dad a hard time ok? I want you to be happy everyday you wake up. Don't be sad about not seeing me, be happy. Can you do that for me hunny?

Ok mommy.

That's my little one, mommy loves you.

I love you to mommy...

I heard silence again before hearing Marcus's voice.

There, now don't call unless you plan on coming back and being the good bitch we all know you will be.

I heard the hang up of the phone and felt my heart break slightly. Looking down on my lap, I read over the letter that sat in it. I felt the tears in my eyes as each word danced around in my head.

Dear Damien,

If you are reading this, I'm dead. Don't cry over me, in fact, hate me if it helps. I left you, I'm sorry. Just know, I love you with my whole heart and I love you no less than my soul. I'm sorry for the pain this will cause you, I'm sorry for everything. Just know, I love you. You had all of me, even if I didn't show you that, it was true. You were my angel when I had no one, you were the one I looked to when I was lost, you were the thing that kept me human. Thank you.

Lost love

Mandii.

My head rested back on the back of the seat. Good-bye was getting hard to say, but I had said it so many times already that I was wishing it was my last words. I closed my eyes before taking a deep breath in. I would tell Jason good-bye when I took care of Nerobel, she wouldn’t kill him is she plans on using him for Helen. Ally, I will say good-bye to Ally after the match. She has better things to worry about anyway, like me bruning her ass. A small smile ran on my lips before I looked out the window at a graveyard.



One last good-bye.

I pushed out of my car, feeling the rain hitting my skin. I walked between the trees that were in front of me before stopping in front of a stone that laid on the ground. I smiled, leaning down and running my hand over the words Diana Rider, Loving Mother, Grandmother and friend.

You told me to stay strong through it all. Looking back, you knew what I was, you knew he wasn't my father. That was what Sparrow was for, why I was your little sparrow.

A smile crossed my lips as I sat down on my knees.

I told you I would stay strong. I told you as you laid dying in a hospital bed that I would stay strong for the both of us. You taught me to fight through it all and I'm trying. But just like you I am tired of fighting. I'm sorry for breaking the promise that I told you before you closed your eyes for the last time, I'm just so tired of fighting. I've lost everything and everyone and now, I'm ready to go. I will keep the promise to you that I will fight until the end. I will take Helen down and I will make sure the world goes on like it should. I will make sure that everyone I love goes on to live the life they should. Then, I will end my fight.

A tear crossed over my cheek. It was like I could feel her hand on my back, her strength with me. I closed my eyes, taking in each rain drop as it fell down.

This is my good-bye, this is me letting go. I'm ending the pain and I'm ending the threat. I'll be everyones unknown fucking hero and save the goddamn world. Once I'm gone I'll fade to the black, but honestly, that's where I've always been the strongest, in the darkness.

My hand made it's way to a sparrow necklace that hung around my neck. I pulled it off, placing it in the palm of my hand, and gripped it. I looked up at the stone before laying the necklace over the lettering and standing to my feet. To allow the monster inside of me, to overcome me was the choice I had to make, a choice I did make, and a choice that would save those that I love. I was ready to fight, I was also ready to die.



I am a member of a team, and I rely on the team, I defer to it and sacrifice for it, because the team, not the individual, is the ultimate champion.

-Mia Hamm