Broken

Life is funny sometimes. It has ups and downs and twists and turns. It is unpredictable and uncontrollable, but everyone tries to control or predict what will happen and when. But alas... things change and life goes on. You just have to ride the roller coaster and see where you end up. It might surprise you in the end. But no matter what, you won’t be able to stop it or change it. All you can do is except the outcome and move forward with what life dishes out. So that brings me the the questions I always ask. What would you do? How would you handle the uncontrollable and unpredictable situations?

What if your world was broken? What if YOU were broken? It could be a physical limitation or a developmental limitation. It could be mental or it could be anything? What would you do and how would you handle it? Life is always throwing you loops, lemons, glitches in the matrix that you in the end have to life with or deal with. So how do you handle it? Do you embrace it? Do you hide and cry? Do you run from it? Or do you try and change it and control it? All in all… you have to in one way or another… deal with it.

Valentine's Day

A day of love and spending it with the one the means the world to you. The one that is your everything. The one you live your life for, would lie for, would walk the world for, would die for. A day full of candy and flowers and romance, where you are filled with love, joy, peace and happiness. Where one person spoils the other and they have this dream night or dream date. You stare into each others eyes and find out just how much you love that person and some even go as far as getting married. But you do have those that have no one and end up spending the day alone and even those that hate the day.

After spending the day with her ex and family to celebrate her twins birthday, Christine was taking the long drive home. She still didn’t feel comfortable making the drive since the accident. But she knew she had to. She was watching for the ice on the road and clinching the wheel tight. her knuckles were almost white as she was driving. She had music playing but she was really not paying attention to it. After hitting an icy patch and spinning she pulls the car to a stop and parks. She gets out for a few moments and tries to recompose herself as she had really scared herself to the point of a panic attack.

She stood there as her life was flashing... everything she had been thru, both good and bad. Everything she had ever done flashing and reminding her just how messed up… how broken she is. Stuff she was not proud of and stuff she was really happy and proud of. As she was calming down… she started to smile as she thought of her lover and what he was going to find when he opened his briefcase. She couldn’t wait to see the pictures he takes. She takes a deep breath and then walks back to her car and gets in. She slowly takes off again as she starts to head home. It was a long drive so she had plenty of time to think on the drive.

She thinks about her family, her friends, the match… oh man that was something that was going to be something she was going to have to really bust her ass on as she let out all the pain and stress she had. She also had one other person on her mind and she also had lots of plans on what to do with him in their next session. Just that thought alone… it made her smile from ear to ear. She didn’t know what it was but just the thought of John like that… it was such a turn on and made her feel just that much stronger. She could also could see exactly this was making John stronger and John tougher.

Their session had been on hold due to her injuries that she was taking care of, but she was still making sure he knew his roll, and knew who was still in charge. But at the same time, she was still viewed as the weak one and that is something she didn’t want. She wasn’t as weak as everyone was thinking, nor was she as weak as last week made her look. She fought her ass off in that ring and she intended to do that again. She intended to prove once and for all to this God forsaken company that she was and will be one of their top superstars. She had got in that ring with not just the women in the company but she had tangled up with the men as well.

Christine is and has always been a fighter. That is in her nature and what her father drilled into her and Simon. Something her mother as well enforced and something she was learning the hard way. Sometimes… the hard way is the only way you learn. Both her and Simon had learned a lot the hard way. But his was nothing like what she had been thru. But then again… Simon and Christine was twins and very close. Well until lately, they kinda have gone two different direction as he went to Warfare and her on Madness... but at the same time, that was better so they could make their marks their ways without walking in the others shadow. Christine started on Warfare and transferred shows after a while. She was happy being where she was with the one she loves. Leaving her past behind.

But now… now she had this tag match that she was getting ready to do with Jim. Jim, her half sister’s boyfriend. She hadn’t worked with Jim as much as she had Matt. But then again… Most of the Ward boys were the same in the ring. The one thing she hoped most of all was that he would bring his A game and that he would be ready for whatever Liz and Radio would throw at them. She didn’t want to admit it… but she had trust issues. Major trust issues and at the moment… the only 2 people she felt she could really trust was her brother Simon and John. But Jim had never hurt her and was good to her sister. So she was giving him a chance.

The drive was long and what else do you do when your alone? You sing to the radio? Talk to yourself? Think of everything and anything? Hell not much you can do alone. And with it Valentine’s Day… the evening was sure to be eventful. Christine had planned to pack for both her and John… couldn’t let him see what she had planned for the trip. She was really going to surprise him this time on how they were getting to Sochi, Russia. But wait was more important is what will happen after they get there. Not just the two together but the matches. John was teaming with his old partner Andrew Morrison, and the two was awesome in the old days. Question is, now that they have both evolved… what will happen now?

And Christine tagging with Jim Ward, her sister at ring side cheering them on. Getting them motivated to fight and fight hard against Liz and Radio and pushing them to new heights that neither of them had really experienced together. Christine knew this was going to be a tough fight. Radio was good. He knew himself around that ring and knew how to counter most anything thrown at him. But he had never been in a ring with anyone like Christine. Would he be prepared for that? Christine on the other hand… she knew he has been dating the one creature in this company that she wished was never born. The one that had cause her last nerve to break and cause her to not be able to trust the man that was the father to most of her children.

The past hurts, and it haunts and it caused one to be totally broken and destroyed to the point they wonder if it is worth it. Thoughts of taking her life had crossed her mind... still does sometime. Only two keeping her grounded at the moment was her brother and John. She was scared for either tie to break cause the would be the very last string that held her together. She felt she lost everything when her and John had that meeting on the day he let her move in. Now he was one of her backbones holding her together. Keeping the broken body together and her mind strong. She didn’t say it a lot or half the time show it… but she really loved the man.

She got closer to home and the closer she got… the more peace she felt. She knew John wasn’t home yet, but she was going to make sure things were ready when he got there. Thoughts of the night started popping in her head. All the fun she planned to have with him. First thing first though… before their playtime… you had to make sure he was well fed. She also was going to make sure Garfield was quite happy so that he would leave them be. Most the time, Garfield pretty much stayed in the bedroom during their play session and slept. She really, as long as he had his attention time… he wasn’t an issue.

She pulls into the driveway and turns off the car. She looks at the house a moment, still surprised he let this messed up young woman stay there. She wondered, did Liz have someone that special. She wasn’t going to touch Radio’s girl with a ten foot pole. For all she cared that bitch could rot in hell along with her bastard of a brother. What did he see in her? Was he blind to the wretches spells? She didn’t know nor did she really give a damn. He could do better and she knew it. Liz on the other hand… She was tough and she was strong. But was she the say she was cause she didn’t have that comfort of a person as wonderful as John. She smiled at that though as she slowly gets out of the car and grabs her things before locking it up and walking to the house.

She slowly opens the door as she knew Garfield would be right there when he heard her. She steps inside and as soon as the door close… right on cue… there came Garfield rushing towards her meowing and looking at her. She giggled a little as he starts to rub her legs.

Christine: Hello Garfield. Come on, lets go get some food. I bet you’re a hungry little boy. Oh yes you are. Mommy will give you some food.

He purred as she start to walk to the kitchen and he follows her. She goes to the cabinet and pulls out his food and she pours some into his bowl along with some fresh water. He start lapping it up very quickly. She smiled as she watched him eat. She then headed to the bedroom where she pulled out two suitcases. While she was packing for both her and John… Garfield then comes in and starts to meow. He jumps on the bed and she pets him a little making sure he is one happy little camper. This was one thing neither Liz or Radio was going to get. She was not about to give them mercy or peace or anything nice.

After she was done… she closed the door leaving Garfield inside. She then heads to the playroom and looks around. She inspects her toys she likes to use with John and on John. She smiles as evil thoughts come to her head. She smirks as she can see exactly what will happen later tonight when he returns. She takes a deep breath and closed her eyes. She could feel the Angel’s presence but Angel wasn’t coming out. Not yet. She was biding her time and waiting to strike. Angel opened Christine’s mind to her thoughts as Christine spoke.

Christine: My playroom… my domain… Only the worthy enter it’s door and only one is worthy to have that that pleasure. Although I could have lots of enjoying waiting those that are my enemy wiggle and squem in here as I would beat the livin hell out of them. You see, I could use any of these lovely whips, chains, and crops and I could tan your lovely little hides. I could show you what pain really is. I could show you what a broken individual can really do. You both have your perfect worlds… your perfect lives. I am sure you have had your pain and heartbreaks but have you really, REALLY ever been totally broken? Have you really ever been at rock bottom? Have you really ever got to the point where you can’t trust your family, your friends… Anyone?

She smirks as she takes on of the whips down and starts to swing it around.

Christine: Picture this… Jim and I in one corner of the ring, Liz and Radio in the other. The Angel comes out and lets her fierce beast out that so far John knows very well, and leaves her claw marks on their tender skin. She causes the black and blue marks to cover each of your bodies. She would break your bones and cause damage that you could only imagine. Now she does prefer to do her work in here… in this little playroom. But right now… only John is allowed to play in her. Only John is allowed to have each of this toys touch his skin. Only John is allowed to have the pleasures of what this little room can offer.

She smirks as she hears the front door open and she starts to walk to the door where she give the one and only John Austin a passionate kiss on the lips before taking a step back and crossing her arms.

Christine: Now I hope you are still wearing the little gift I left you or else it could mean some serious punishment.

She takes his hand and tells him to go clean up in the bathroom and give him his orders… checking to see if he was in fact still wearing her undies. She smiles as she shuts the door. She goes and sets the table for dinner and quickly whips something for them to eat. As she starts to hear the water turn off in the shower. She heads back to the door as the scene fades to black.