Admin note: I will be posting rayne's roleplays for him as he does not have posting access currently. Everything below is his work, as is. I have not read it yet or made any edits.

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[ooc note-- this is without a shadow of a doubt my longest piece here, as of yet. but... i put a LOT of effort and focus into it. i worked on it from around 3am... to 8am, just now. i had a lot of ground i wanted to cover... a story i wished to tell. so i tried my best. i'm hoping that some of you will read it all, and that it will hold your attention... i'm also hoping some of you will leave feedback on this, as well as the other parts of 'Satellite'... i had the vision to go through with this arch... and i made it a reality. please... enjoy. thank you...]





He stormed his way to Mac Manor, still fueled by anger and hatred... his eyes intense, and his fist clutching the bag of "prizes" he had bought for the participants in the Australian Creatures match. He reached his front door... raYne was home. He burst through the door, and slung the collection of knick-knacks to the floor, all of which amounted to an assortment of bribes for whomever walked away from the Creatures contest as the winner. The den was humongous, the size of an expensive hotel lobby. $hane glared across the room's expanse... to find Tony Spaghetti, his long-time male lover, standing there, with a smile on his face... and not wearing much else.

"HI-YA, HUN!"

"Tony... I'm not in the mood."

"... but... the football game is over! I just thought I'd cheer ya up, that's all..."

"Tony... I just dismantled a homophobe for his ignorance. There is blood on my hands. There is blood on my black baseball bat. AND I DON'T MEAN THAT ONE... and my mind is FILLED with rage. I have no time for this..."

"But, babe, dont'cha think maybe you could let out some ah that aggression... on little ol' me?" Tony pulls a whip out from... God knows where... "LOOKiE! I have a whip!"

"You don't say. Tony, at this very moment the only thing I would want to do with that whip is choke that bastard out till I was SURE he had not a breath left in his body... iAm tired. iAm both angry and depressed. And while your nether regions are quite tempting... I do not feel up to it. Please... either be gone with you, or prepare for me a meal. I wish to have spaghetti for dinner." At this, Tony's face immediately lights up, "Not YOU, nitwit... I mean actual spaghetti. You know, pasta, meatballs, ragu, that sort of thing." Tony's face now looks sullen, and he looks down at the floor, letting out a heavy sigh.

"... oh alright, Tony... I'll give you a hand job while I'm eating, will that suffice?"

Tony instantly picks his head back up, showing the largest smile he can muster. "Oh, Reevie-kins, you know JUST how to make a guy happy!"

"Yes, indeed I do. But what have I told you COUNTLESS times... don't refer to me by that name. That is no longer who iAm. I am not... Reeve... I am $hane. Or raYne. But no longer 'Reeve'... that was my birth name. Given to me by an alcoholic father and a treacherous mother... she deserted me. So I desert her, her memory, the memory of my father, and all that they stood for in my eyes. They are but a thing of the past... a past I no longer dwell upon. For my Light shines, guiding me into the Future... a future paved with diamonds. Tony... go begin my meal. I feel a hunger coming on..."

~ ~ ~

"Satellite in my eyes--
Like a diamond in the sky.
How I wonder...

... who's the King of your Satellite Castle?"
~ Dave Matthews

~ ~ ~

raYne sits at his dining table... a table resembling that of which would carry the feasts of medieval kings and queens, and their many followers. But at this particular oakwood table, there sits only raYne, and on the opposite end, Tony... who looks as if he's about to cry.

"Tony, what on Earth is the matter with you?"

"... YOU PROMISED ME A HAND JOB!!! raaaaYneee... dammit... YOU'RE NOT STRETCH ARMSTRONG, YA KNOW! ... Gahhh..."

Tony whines, which drives raYne crazy... he drops his face into his palms. "Tony... I-- gat dammit..." raYne lifts his head up... and smiles.

Before crawling underneath the table.

The sound of rustling is heard coming from below the table... Tony looks quizically before him... wondering what exactly it is raYne is up to.

"raYne..."

A few chairs can be seen moving... as the noises come closer and closer to Tony's end of the table... the chairs continue to move... until--

"raYne... raY-- ... uh... oh...
... hmmm...
... mmmmmmm...
... *purrs* oh gosh...
Now I remember... why I've been putting up with your attitude the past... ten... years..."

A new set of noises begin to come from underneath the table... ones we won't go into detail about... Tony has a much larger smile spread across his face than he did earlier... his eyes begin to roll into the back of his head, he places his hands on the table, and digs into its surface... when, suddenly--

*CHOMP*

"OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!! OH MY FUCKING GOD, WHAT THE HELL?!?!?!?! OW, OW, OW, OWWW... SHIT!"

raYne pulls himself out from underneath the table... a white substance dribbling down his chin... along with a red one...

"MY GOD, RAYNE, WHAT THE FUCK?! You just BIT ME! What the HELL WAS THAT FOR?!"

"Hey... I told you. I was hungry. And I wanted spaghetti. So? I ate Spaghetti."

"... you filthy, rotten son-of-a-bitch..."

*SMACK*

"GAT DAMMIT!", Tony holds a palm to the side of his face, which raYne just slapped with all his might... "Lemme guess... that was for me callin' your mom a bitch."

"Hell no. That witch left me when I was eight, fuck her... No, hun. That was because I love you. Nothing more, nothing less."

raYne promptly sits in Tony's lap, and wraps his arms around his beloeved boy toy. raYne smiles precociously, and nuzzles his head close to Tony's shoulder.

"... Love hurts like a mother fucker, don't it raYne."

"Yes, Tony... yes it does."

~ <3 ~

raYne sits in his Big Comfy Chair... again. Staring at his giant television screen, with his face awash in horror... again. Staring at an image he can't pull himself to believe is the same face that stares back at him in the mirror. He can't believe the person he sees... is him.

"What have I done... what have I become... what is HAPPENING to me...
This can't be...
... I can't let this be..."

As he watches, he sees himself, bringing a black baseball bat crushing into the front and sides of a man's head... the man that called him a "" after raYne left the mall. The word still twists itself like a knife inside raYne's gut... but he has brought himself to believe that these words... that they shouldn't affect him. That he should ignore them, not allow them to phase him, for when he DOES allow the words and actions of others to control his emotions... they have power over him. He's told himself again & again, not to give them power... To control his emotions, instead of letting them control him.

... yet here he was, in brilliant HD... clobbering a man till he bled profusely, because $hane couldn't handle those ignorant remarks... he GAVE them power, by allowing them to bother him... and to drive him into a state of madness.

"I can't-- I can't be this... I left this, oh so long ago, I AM NO LONGER THIS...
... Am i?"

Staring at the screen, speaking to himself, it feels as if he believes there to be another...
... another side to himself. Two halves trapped within the same whole...

He reaches for the remote to shut off the power... but something catches his ear. Something he said... the sound of these words permeates his mind, causing him to almost fear... himself. It sends shivers down his spine... this evil that lies within... it curdles his blood, and almost makes him tremble at the sound of his own voice...

raYne Said:"Nova... we have some things in common. But not everything. You see... there is this "light" inside of me... not THE Light... but this... naive spirit. Who still clings to fairy tale delusions... this man who "Believes" in the good of all mankind... that nobody is truly evil. That 'All we need is love', as the old Beatles hymn goes... This part of me... must die. We are ALL evil...

...

"... iAm taking you all on a journey. Into the stars... So that I may have you meet the one entity that truly does exist. There is no Mother Moon or Star Child... there is only she who casts the Light. And all those who obey the calling... shall have immortal life. Any other story is a fabrication. Any other story is buried within a mound of deception, a veil of lies, a wall of unTruth... and a road of darkness. Follow this road, darlingz? And see where it leads you... till you can no longer see at all.

"... but. You have another choice. You ALL have another option... to follow me. Not yet... but soon. My birthday... October 31st... All Hallow's Eve. This year... it shall prove to be an awakening. A RE-Awakening. A reBirth. And 10.24 shall be the Eve of this day... a Warning Sign. Within my mind... there is a prophecy. That unfolds, day by day... Nova... you have no power. You imagine all of these things... these beams of electricity, these 'visions of the future'... Nova, there is only ONE being on this Earth that has True Vision.

"And you're looking at him.

"You cannot even BEGIN to comprehend what you, Alex, and the others have awoken... but you will. Oh-ho... will you ever..."

As these words infiltrate his mind, he can take no more... he turns off the set, and drops the remote on the floor. He bends over and buries his head in his arms...

"Why am I like this... why do I say such things, DO such things... why can't I control myself..."




"iAm lost... so lost.
You are the constellations--
That guide me."


raYne lifts his head... tears flowing from his eyes... he speaks, staring ahead, not giving the camera a single glance.

"... Last Thursday. Last Thursday, I was overcome by joy. I had just signed the dotted line on a new contract... my ticket to a return. A grand re-entry into the world that led me to such amazing heights... and such devestating lows. The business that made it possible for me to live in a place like this... to enjoy the finest things in life. The business that allowed for me to travel the globe, meet such wonderful people, and live out all of my hopes and dreams...

"... the business that led me to meeting 'The Deite's Dragon', Javex Valerius.
My childhood hero... my first male crush...
... I told him. And he laughed in my face.

"... the business that led me to give Alexis all she ever wanted,
And for me to finally form a tag team with my best friend, something we'd always wished for as children...
... before he slept with Alexis. And brought my childhood sweetheart romance crashing to the ground.

"... the business that led me to truly discover who I was.
Bi... androgynous... straight edge...
... raYne."

$hane, hands clasped, stares at the blank screen in front of him. "I met Tony through this business... I met so many great people. Vlad, Claudia, Dark Demon, Matthew & Steven A. Kult, The Russian, Leary Garcia, Ultimatum, Heather Storm, Sean O'Connor, Trinity, Shadowman, Radium, Bella Donna, Callisto, Dr. Sillicone M. Plants, Steve Studnuts, Kevin the Pyromaniac, Bobo Q. Fiendish, Sarah the J0bber Slayer, Kay Fabe, Scott Carr, Kamikaze, L. , SlipShod, Dante Deranged, Desmond & Thaddeus Rains, Dragon Demonico, Krystal Dawn...

"... Alexandra Callaway, SuperNova, Mystica, Griffin MacAlister, Eli James, Nazi, Sincere Lee Wild, Tony Santos, John Austin, Mr. Radio, LJ Havok, Lightning, D-Shad, Archie Lawson, Hunter Payne, Angelus, Minxs, John Madison, "The Prophet of Extreme" Paul E. Heyman ... even Peter Gilmour.

"Pete... you would have gotten along really well with The Russian.
He was a grown man who walked around in a chicken suit, shouting 'WHOA, I AM DEFINITELY NOT JOEY LAWRENCE.'
You make almost as much sense as he did. Would LOVE to hear a sound bite from that conversation..."

raYne turns his face to the camera, a slight smile playing at the corner of his lips, after that joke... he stares into the camera's lens... before looking away.

"... one thing... one common twine holds each and every one of those names together.
... they all ridiculed me.
At one point or another... they all did. Every last one of them.

"... except for two names. Two names are all I can think of that seperate themselves from the pack.
Sincere Lee Wild... and Lightning."

raYne glances at the camera, and whispers. "...thank you. both of you..." , before turning his sight back toward the empty television screen. "The rest, though... have either ignored me... or mocked me... or simply detested me. For one reason or another, I have rubbed practically every single person I've ever met the wrong way, not only in this business but outside of it as well.

"Even Tony.
Even myself..."

raYne looks down at the floor... and sighs.

"... that's right. Because... do you think... do all of you truly believe that I don't see EXACTLY why each and every one of you despises the ground I walk on? Yes, there are many reasons you shouldn't, yet you do, and those in the past have as well... there are MANY reasons which people focus on that I can't change... and wouldn't want to...

"... but there are just as many reasons as to why you should hate me. And these are the things, that, over the next few months... I am going to be focusing on...

"ego me bello. Ego... me bello. iAm in a war against myself. Do you realize what that means?

"My greatest enemy... my greatest challenge... the biggest obstacle within my path...
... is myself.

"... I have never. Ever. Held a World Title.
Scratch that... my first official match.
I cheated... I clipped the Dragon's wings.
I dropped Javex from a triple decker cage...
... and I did so in the most underhanded of ways.
I could have ended his career.
I could have taken the man's life.
But he was lucky. I... I was lucky.

"... but after that... nothing.
I've hardly ever even held a secondary championship.
And why is it, you may ask?
Simple...
I have talent.
I have ability.
I have potential.
But what I lack?

"Is focus.
And a never dying drive.
And the right mind frame...
... an unwavering positivity.
I often venture into the light...
But then... this darkness.
It always, ALWAYS pulls me back.

"Someone told me this isn't about titles...
This business... it's about the moments.
The memories...
The sad thing is?
I can't even cherish those--
Because each one is tainted.

"Because of what I do... not who iAm, but what I do.
I rage. And I lash out... and time after time...
... I lose everything I've worked for.
Every time I'm on the verge of a miracle...
I have it taken away.

"By myself."

raYne begins to breathe quite heavily... flustered, staring at the floor... "Alex. I realize now... at least, in this moment, devoid of that darkness that always lingers in the back of my mind... in this moment of 'now', i_Realize exactly what has led me to where iAm... always being so close... yet so very far away.

"... you have love. From Mystica... he sacrified himself for you. He could have died in your name... for your love. ... While I... I tried to end the life of my 'true love'... I tried to do to her what Eli tried to do to you... only, with a different wooden object... and instead of a crucifixion... I bludgeoned her over the skull with it...", raYne pulls the black baseball bat into the picture, "... this. Given to me by my father. That night... Halloween, '91. I discovered my father's dark secret he hid from my mother... that he had been cheating on her with my babysitter. My mother had been beaten, over and over again by his cruel hands... and that was the breaking point. She left... she left me, alone, with him... but I do not blame her. She had taken all she could. She tried to stay, for my sake... but she could handle it no longer. She left... and I was alone, with him and my new 'mommy', Tifa Rose. My 19 year old babysitter... I lived each day from that point in this dark place... this mind-set that it was me, alone... that my father didn't give a damn about me... He was there, living off of Tifa's income... yet I was still alone.

"Alex... I know you are a daughter of the darkness. You are consumed in it. But... where there is darkness... there is always light. I can see it in you... when you look at Mystica... that connection the two of you share. That is a connection not born from anything touched by hate or darkness... that is a light. The love I speak, the love I BELIEVE in... the love I long for. I know, in these past few days, I have said such horrid things about you... but know this. Those words may come from my mouth...

"... but they do not come from my heart. They come from that place within that I try to deny, that I try to hide... that place inside myself that I try to bury and kill off...

"... that part... that reminds me of my father. I... slowly became him. I found Alexis in bed with my best friend, Bass Monsoon... and I sought my revenge.

"... I dragged her to a cabin... and...
... and I can't continue...
I can't say anymore...
Not yet. I will...
But now is not the time.

"But that darkness that I saw in the eyes of my father... is the same I see from time to time when I pass a mirror. I can see it within myself... that evil. That cold, uncaring, vile entity...

"... I call it 'The Nothing'.

"It consumes. It morphs. It twists. It takes love and transforms it into hate...
... that Thursday...

"Last Thursday, the day I felt so alive and so brand new after signing with XWF, I met her... Crystal. The shy, timid gal with the glasses. We spoke of how we were both new in town... I helped her with her groceries, and she promised to help me with my dilemma... being alone.

"We talked over Skype... we made plans... we laughed and smiled and we BOTH felt it would last... Forever.

"Then... she met my other half. The feminine side of me... the sparkly, bubbly, girly side bedecked in glitter and lip gloss. She couldn't handle that part of me. She couldn't love me for all iAm.

"... Unlike Alexis. Who loved me... unconditionally...
... in fact. She loved me BECAUSE I was girly...
... she thought it was adorable.

"Crystal... she left me in my time of need... and I was left alone. Again. And that darkness... that other part of me... it took hold. It... grew stronger. Every time... every time I feel loss, or pain, or suffering... it grows stronger..."





raYne lifts his gaze from the floor... and stands.

"Alexis loved me. She did. But... she grew tired.

"She grew tired... just as all of you have.

"Just as Tony has time and again over the past decade..."

raYne turns his sight back toward the camera. "Just as I have."

raYne walks toward the camera... before brushing past it.

The camera pans to the side, and we find him trekking toward a room... with a symbol upon the front.

A symbol, of a book... with three letters engraved in gold... ".N.E.E." , and beneath it reads, 'Library'.

~ ~ ~

The library is vast... but even that does not describe exactly how monumental $hane's collection of books is. Not only books... but tapes. He has stock-piled tapes from his past... mostly of each company he has ever passed through. XAW... SWC... MCW... many, many different promotions. And now, XWF. All of his promos... all of his matches. His history. As well as that of his opponents... All here, contained on video cassette... so he may study. So he may take it all in... and be prepared. For anything that may come his way...

"Alex...", raYne calls, standing beside a shelf, his hand placed upon a row of books... "For these past few days, I've looked through my collection of XWF tapes, as small as it may be... to search for something. Informtation pertaining to your relationship with Nova. When I dwell in the dark... I research so I may pour salt in your open wounds...

"... but today, I looked for something different. I looked... for a connection. Between the two of you... and my dear Alexis & I. I needed to see... the end. Where love dies... and where hate is born from its ashes.

"I found it.

"I saw a man changed... A man once known as Mr 'Satellite'... now, Mr. SuperNova. And I saw the two of you... slowly drifting apart. I saw how he took umbrage to your protecting Griff' from Mr. XWF... Mr. X'. A man whom I've had a few run-ins with myself in the short time I've been here...

"... I saw Nova warn you... but you didn't listen. Why?

"... because you cared.
Because... within all of that darkness... there IS a light.
There is love. For your friends... no matter if they would be there for you or not...

"... and for Mystica.
Who would lay down his very life if it meant protecting the person he holds dear.
You.

"Alex... beneath all of MY darkness... there is this resonating light. This being filled to the brim with positive energy... just DYING to break free.

"I've compared myself to Nova... I've compared you to Alexis.
But the Truth is... you and I?
We're not so different from eachother.
We are unique individuals. We walk to the beat of our own drums.
And we straddle the line between darkness... and light.
You cling much closer to darkness...
But there are things about you, that I see. I notice these things...
A being of nothing but hate and darkness and evil...
They would lack compassion.
You do not.
And while my darker half would scoff at that...

"... I admire you.
At another time...
Perhaps far, far down the line...
We may be friends.
Soon, we stand across the ring from one another--
As opponents.
But... I see potential. You are a great warriror, Ally.
With great power...
Do not allow Eli to get to you and to deter the love that is meant to be.
The love that was between you and Nova... it died. When things changed...

"Do not allow Eli to change what connects you and Mystica.
Do not allow him to twist it, manipulate it, and control it... to kill it.
Love... love, my darling. Is the strongest Force of them all."

raYne smiles... a soft, warm smile... caring. He turns an eye toward his collection of video tapes... he moves toward it, and sits down at a wooden chair. He pulls one tape out from the collection...

"Nova wasn't the only one who changed though... I found this. Around the time of my arrival... I found these words, spoken by Nova..."

raYne slips the tape into a deck, and presses play.

Mr. &quot;Satellite&quot; Said:It's something all right. Well, whatever she's got to do to get in shape and toughen herself up for our battle. You know I didn't think I changed her so much, just by simply dating her, but I guess I did. It's weird how she'd change so easily. Someone who's supposed to be all powerful and driven by the power of the moon. I mean it makes you wonder if the person she's claims she's changing into, is even her true self... Someone who can be molded and manipulated so easily, like what was claimed to have happened, what's to say that's not happening again. Maybe this new persona, is just something Zak is molding her into. There's no proof otherwise. Sure, she could say that's not true, but those are just her words, which seem rather hollow and meaningless after she admits she can be corrupted and changed so easily. She certainly had me fooled though. I thought who she was when I was dating her, was her true personality and it turns out, she was just that way because apparently, I made her that way. Real funny stuff. Real eye opening, funny stuff.

...

Okay...I'm sorry, I've know Mr. XWF way longer than I've known Ally and I respect him. I'm sorry if I don't feel like running to the aid of someone who's provoked him. Even if that person is someone I'm dating. I mean Griffin MacAlister, really isn't a guy you need to speak up for. Sure he helped her out in a fight, but that doesn't mean he became her BFF. It also doesn't mean she has to stick her nose into an argument he's having with someone, on the pretense of defending him. Yes, because that ended really well. Mr. XWF just fired back like he does and who was there to put him in his place, cause you know she sure as heck couldn't. Not Griffin MacAlsiter, that's for sure. Where was that mechanic anyway? Why didn't he defend her in return? Seems like that would have been, only fair. No, that's when she'll claim, she's the better person and can defend someone who wouldn't do the same for her. Translation, that's what I was for. Well, I'm sorry this time she chose the wrong person to defend, in the wrong situation. In a way it made me see her, for who she really was. A doormat....and nobody wants to date, a doormat.

raYne stops the tape... and a solemn expression comes over his face. He glares forward... almost as if the words Nova spoke upset him in some way...

"Alex...", raYne says, without looking at the camera... "I play this not to mock you. But to tell you... this man? This STARman... he is scum. I tried to believe he was this great guy who still loved you and maybe, MAYBE, there was still a shred of love left within his heart...

"... I was lying to myself. And for that, Ally, I apologize." raYne suddenly turns his sight toward the camera... contempt building within his eyes, and a twitch slowly developing... "Nova... Alex is injured. At the hands of Eli... HER hand is weakened, and so is that of Mystica. So I very well could pull off this, my debut match... and I could proceed to the main event. My first main event here in the XWF.

"... D-Shad, Hunter Payne, Jonny Rebel, Matt Lennox, Smokie... I have this feeling. That they won't be making it to the main event. For I can already tell that Nazi... he's returned. He's re-invigorated. And he wants to make a statement.

"... but it will not be at my expense.

"I want a piece of Naz', don't get me wrong...
... but he will not be my target.

"Nova... if Ally doesn't get to you? If Ally doesn't END YOU...
... I will.

"Nova...
I will be the death of you.

"I see through you.
Crystal clear.
You depict yourself as a bit of a hero...
A father... torn between saving his child...
And sacrificing them to save mankind.

"But behind it all...
You are much darker than even I could ever DARE hope to be.

"They won't see what I see... from watching that, they won't gather what I have...
... but eventually? They will.
All of the pieces... will fall into place.
And this puzzle... this interstellar puzzle that is 'Satellite'...

"... it will uncover itself.
You will unravel.
And you WILL be undone.

"If Alex doesn't get her hands on you, as so she deserves, and bring you under?

"I will make damned sure, that not only do you NOT leave your 'home' with the TV Title...

"... but I will make damned sure you cease to be.

"Nova...
In space?
No one can hear you scream."

raYne stands up from his seat... and walks out of the library. On the tv set, one image is left...

Guiscard, speaking to Nova...
And the fire in Nova's eyes...





"Wake up to your dreams--
And watch them come true.
I'll make you whisper my name,
And never leave the room.
Night and day I'll be your muse--
No other girl can make you feel the way I do...

"Don't be afraid... close your eyes.
Let me take you to places that you've never been tonight.
I thought by now... you'd realize...

"I can do anything I put my mind to.

"I can make the stars dance,
Light up the moon.
I can make the stars dance,
If you want me to.
The sky is everywhere--
So meet me under there.

"I can make the stars dance.
Dance..."

~ S.G.



"And then I realize that--
We need to use our own two feet to walk these tracks.
And we have to squad up and we have to watch each other's backs.
With FORGiVENESS as our torch, and iMAGINATION our sword,
We'll untie the ropes of HATE and slash open the minds of the bored...

"And we'll start a world so equal and free,
Every inch of this Earth is yours, all the land and all the sea.
Imagine no restrictions, but the climate and the weather.

"Then we can explore Space...
... together. Forever."

~ E.S.





#BELiEVE
#may_the_force_be_with_you

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