03-29-2020, 05:58 PM
Ok I feel that a lot of you deserve an explanation, and I’m going to give it to everyone.
The retirement angle was LEGIT. I was ready to walk away and head over to Defiance.
Right around Cuntfest my wife and I had an emergency that left both of us broken. We were both not in a good headspace, and right then and there I was ready to pack it up and leave. Some of you know what happened others not so much. It caused me to blow up in the discord and say something’s that weren’t necessary and shouldn’t have been said.
I think I did a good job of hiding how broken I was and still am. Even those closest to me would ask,
“You Okay?”
It took every ounce of my being to say.
“Yeah, why?”
When inside I just wasn’t myself anymore. Then a funny thing happened. I opted in to a show, and was having fun again. It was my outlet. I was able to get all of my frustrations out, it allowed me to disassociate from reality. I’m betterish now, well as best as I can currently be, and am working towards stability again.
So once I realized I was having fun again, I did a complete 180, and decided to cash in. Then I flip flopped a few times ( Sorry Theo) until I settled in and knew that’s where I wanted to be.
I was ready to go. To those who i lied to, please remember i was set on leaving and some of you asked right around the time when I decided to cash in, and at that point the surprise was too much for me to pass up.
To those who ask me “you, okay?” The answer is always “no”, but you’ll never realize how much just stupid conversations about bourbon and how stupid Yoda is...helped. Those moments spent talking about anything but what was going on helped. Thank you for being you. I love the both of you more than you know.
I felt in order to move past all of this, Fuzz is essentially dead, and Shawn will take the forefront.
So yeah. I’m not going anywhere, well not now at least.
Thank You to all of you….
Yes Even you Barney
Nothing But love and respect,
Jeremy
The retirement angle was LEGIT. I was ready to walk away and head over to Defiance.
Right around Cuntfest my wife and I had an emergency that left both of us broken. We were both not in a good headspace, and right then and there I was ready to pack it up and leave. Some of you know what happened others not so much. It caused me to blow up in the discord and say something’s that weren’t necessary and shouldn’t have been said.
I think I did a good job of hiding how broken I was and still am. Even those closest to me would ask,
“You Okay?”
It took every ounce of my being to say.
“Yeah, why?”
When inside I just wasn’t myself anymore. Then a funny thing happened. I opted in to a show, and was having fun again. It was my outlet. I was able to get all of my frustrations out, it allowed me to disassociate from reality. I’m betterish now, well as best as I can currently be, and am working towards stability again.
So once I realized I was having fun again, I did a complete 180, and decided to cash in. Then I flip flopped a few times ( Sorry Theo) until I settled in and knew that’s where I wanted to be.
I was ready to go. To those who i lied to, please remember i was set on leaving and some of you asked right around the time when I decided to cash in, and at that point the surprise was too much for me to pass up.
To those who ask me “you, okay?” The answer is always “no”, but you’ll never realize how much just stupid conversations about bourbon and how stupid Yoda is...helped. Those moments spent talking about anything but what was going on helped. Thank you for being you. I love the both of you more than you know.
I felt in order to move past all of this, Fuzz is essentially dead, and Shawn will take the forefront.
So yeah. I’m not going anywhere, well not now at least.
Thank You to all of you….
Yes Even you Barney
Nothing But love and respect,
Jeremy
