05-02-2014, 03:21 PM
A complete lie would be to say I was fine, my life was great, and what had happen in the past wouldn't affect my outlook on the future. I already knew what my future would be, it would be a life full of struggle and constant reminders of everything I lost. I no longer had a choice to have my daughter back, I wouldn't allow my wish for her to be here affect her life in a drastic way like bringing her into my world. Right now, as much as I hated the feeling of the words even crossing in my mind, she was safe with Marcus and away from me. She could grow up and be who she is meant to be, not a monster like me. Aside from her finding out what I was, she would be in constant danger of people who have it out for me, and right now the number of those people happens to continue to grow. I lost all humanity and now I am this thing...I didn't even fit in with what was considered "My kind." On top of it all I had a sister back from the dead who wants revenge on me and our father, an Original Siren who wants me dead for ruining her plans and killing her daughter, and some dream warrior's daughter who wants me and Jason dead.
But I won't give up.
Wind blew through my hair with the last cold front until Summer. My hands gripped a shovel as I looked up to the sun setting. It seemed like only feet from me, as if I could reach out and walk a little closer to touch it. A sigh left my lips before I looked down to a hole six feet deep. I stuck the shovel into the ground and picked up Teakkins black long coat letting the brown hair show off in the light as I dropped it into the ground. Looking up I could see the anger in Zella's eyes as she crossed her arms.
She didn't have to die.
She gave her own life, leave it alone.
You never gave her a choice.
Yes I did, the moment I met her I gave her the choice and this is what she chose. The moment she stepped in front of me she knew what would happen, she knew the risks involved in it and she did it. I told her this could mean life and death. She knew the possibility of death. Now let it go.
I pushed Zella out of the way and began to drop dirt into the grave. I could hear Zella's soft sigh as she looked up to the blue sky, a small tear fell from her cheek. I didn't have the time to cry, I didn't even really have the time to bury her. I had other things on my mind and what was done was done...I couldn't bring her back.
Why did you have to run out in front of Mandii!! You poor puppy!!
Teakkin! It's a dog get the fuck over it.
It might have been someones dog, you never know. Shesh, at least act like you are a normal human being.
I rolled my eyes and looked over at Zella, another tear streaming down her cheek.
You both have killed people and have watched people die and you are going to cry over a dog?
The dog didn't do anything to you!
I held a growl in my throat as I passed the shovel on to Zella and began to walk away. Teakkin stood to her feet and looked back at me walking away.
Where are you going?
To a place I don't have to listen to you two cry over a dog I hit.
I walked away leaving the two to bury a dog in the ground. Heartless, it was one of the words Teakkin used to describe me as I looked down at the bloody remains on the road. It was a dog, was I supposed to avoid it and crush us in a wreck? I got to the car and slammed the door after getting in. I sat back, sighing and turning the key to start the car. I wasn't just leaving the two so I could get away from the sobbing, I had something I needed to do and while they were busy crying over spilled dog blood I would be able to do it.
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The engine to my car stopped and once again I leaned back into the seat with a sigh. A bag full of blue flowers laid out in my lap. When you aren't happy with the life you have you try to change it, the same goes to the person you are. We've invented new ways to change our appearance and hope that is all that is missing in our lives. I guess that explains why I'm here. I pushed up from the seat and got out of my car walking to a building. A few knocks echoed back at me from the door before it opened to Nova, or Azrael as he likes to be called now.
Wow, you look...Different...
He gave off a smirk before leaving the door. I followed in behind him and shut the door with my foot.
Thanks for sticking around.
What is it exactly that you want me to help you with?
I pulled up the bag of flowers and shook it slightly.
I want you to give me back something I lost, I want you to give me back my humanity.
Azrael scanned the bag before taking it from my hand. I watched him look over them before taking them over to a table and taking out a pettle. I walked behind him, crossing my arms.
How is this going to make you human?
The flower cells fight the Siren cells for a little while. It changes cells to human cells.
But your cells will just fight them and kill them off thus not really giving you back your humanity.
I rolled my eyes and hopped up on the table.
Look, I know this shit isn't a permanent solution, thats not what I’m looking for, but I also know I don't want to be stuck like this forever. I want to feel how I did before all this.
So you want me to give you a way to be human again for a matter of hours if even that?
Not fully human, but yes. I want you to help me find a way to take the cells in that flower and put them in me.
Did you try eating them?
Ok smart ass, this is the catch, too much of those and the war in my body goes overboard and causes one of two things. One it could possibly kill me or two it could have a negative effect and cause damage to my body.
So handicapping you.
Ya, I need you to help with a good dosage.
And how do you plan to take this dosage? Pill? Syringe? Drinking?
I rolled my eyes and jumped off the table shaking it slightly.
Syringe is the fastest way to do it.
One more question.
Just one more?
How much to do you know about these flower's cells?
I looked over at the flower. In all honesty I didn't know much just what I've seen. I was first told to stay away from them but they ended up allowing me to win a war with Helen. I know what they do to the cells in my body, however, I wasn't clear on all the drawbacks of trying to use this to keep humanity.
Does it matter? Just run your tests and give me a shot space trash.
Not going to make a remark about how I'm not green?
A smirk crossed my face.
Nope, maybe next time. So how are you going to find out the dose needed?
Blood sample and I need to put you to sleep so I can pump a controlled dose into your body. From there I can help control the dose even more and maybe even speed up the reaction in the cells and make it last longer than it's meant to.
Wait how do you know a controlled dose?
Educated guess and that's why I need the blood sample. If I can see how fast the cells attack I can guess how fast they will attack when put into your body directly.
Why do I have to be asleep for it?
Do you really want to be awake with a tube going into your body pumping in cells? You don't feel a lot of pain now but it still would have to feel uncomfortable. Besides, at time I might need to remove the blood in your body and pump it back in if something goes wrong.
Fine, I'll...OW! DICK!
Azreal held up a small tube of my blood as a smile grew across his face.
Got the blood.
I sent my hand to the back of his head before leaning on the table.
Hurry up and put me to sleep or E.T isn't phoning home tonight.
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My eyes slowly opened to Azael leaning over me with a big smile on his face and the tube was attached in my side still, irritating me.
It's good to see even after an appearance change you still manage to look as stupid as you did before. God, why does my head hurt?
Sorry, it appears I let you hang upside for too long after probing. My mistake.
Haha so funny spacejunk. How'd the test stuff go?
I pushed up from a blue chair and hung my legs over the side before pulling out the tube in my side.
Well, how do you feel?
Well my head hurts and...Wait, my head hurts.
You established that.
My head hurts.
I might have broken you.
It worked, I can feel slight pain. Hand me the scalpel.
Um, why?
Hand me a scalpel or I'll get up and get a bottle to smash over your head.
Still bitchy as ever.
He walked over to the table and grabbed the scalpel that laid next to a bunch of little tubes. He handed it to me, a look of curiosity on his face.
What are you going to...
A growl hung in my mouth as I jabbed the scalpel into my leg and twisted it.
I should have known.
It worked...
I pulled the scalpel out and held onto my knee, focusing on healing it.
You had to stab yourself to find that out?
No, I did it for fun you little shit head. Is there more?
No shit head just the dose I gave you when you were sleeping.
Azael walked over to the table and opened a small case that contained five syringes and three small vials full of this blueish green stuff.
The syringes are full and just so you don't bother for more for awhile, theres three vials to refill the syringe.
A smile grew on my face as I hopped from the chair and walked over to the case. I put my hand close to it before it was shut.
Don't go past the little red mark on the syringes. This doesn't just contain the cells from the flowers so do what I say. When the surges are empty no higher than the red line and no lower than the red line. You shouldn't need the injection for at least five hours, you will know when you need another when the veins in your body start draining the the blue they are right now. Don't inject yourself more than..
The red line I know.
I was going to say more than needed but you get the point. Also it would be a good idea to keep up with when you inject it and when it runs out.
You said you put something else in, what?
Just something to help boost the time. Also the injection site will be red for the first few injections so if you are trying to hide it I would go with a quickie to the leg.
That all?
One more thing don't drink it.
No shit.
I grabbed the case and started to walk out before hearing him clear his throat. I turned around and looked back at him.
Why did you come to me for this "Help"?
I smile and looked down.
I knew you would be interested.
I started to walk away again before he called out.
One more thing! I need to check to make sure it's working properly later.
I'll come back, thanks.
With that, I closed the door behind me and got in my car. The sun was starting to raise. I shook my head trying to fight off the pounding in it. I needed to get home, I had been here all night and knowing Teakkin and Jason I would have a search party out in a hour or two.
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After my car stopped I sat back in the seat and watched the door of the run down old building I called home. I would either be walking in to a house full of people looking for me or watching their eyelids. Part of me envied them. Jason didn't seem to care what he was now, Teakkin and Zella had never been human so they don't know any of my feelings, and all three of them seemed to be happy with life. The only thing happy in my life right now was the fact I could still wrestle, the only normal thing I had left. I rolled my eyes and grabbed the case next to me, tossing it into a bag, and getting out of the car. I made my way to the door, hesitating to open it. I took in a deep breath and opened the door to Zella laying in a chair and Teakkin half way off the couch. They were both covered in dirt and motionless. I sighed in relief as I made my way down the hall to my room. I stopped just before going in, looking into Jason's room. He was asleep to with a crow at his window. I shook my head and went to my room, letting the bag fall to the ground just as I went in. I fell back on a mattress on the ground and closed my eyes.
But I won't give up.
Wind blew through my hair with the last cold front until Summer. My hands gripped a shovel as I looked up to the sun setting. It seemed like only feet from me, as if I could reach out and walk a little closer to touch it. A sigh left my lips before I looked down to a hole six feet deep. I stuck the shovel into the ground and picked up Teakkins black long coat letting the brown hair show off in the light as I dropped it into the ground. Looking up I could see the anger in Zella's eyes as she crossed her arms.
She didn't have to die.
She gave her own life, leave it alone.
You never gave her a choice.
Yes I did, the moment I met her I gave her the choice and this is what she chose. The moment she stepped in front of me she knew what would happen, she knew the risks involved in it and she did it. I told her this could mean life and death. She knew the possibility of death. Now let it go.
I pushed Zella out of the way and began to drop dirt into the grave. I could hear Zella's soft sigh as she looked up to the blue sky, a small tear fell from her cheek. I didn't have the time to cry, I didn't even really have the time to bury her. I had other things on my mind and what was done was done...I couldn't bring her back.
Why did you have to run out in front of Mandii!! You poor puppy!!
Teakkin! It's a dog get the fuck over it.
It might have been someones dog, you never know. Shesh, at least act like you are a normal human being.
I rolled my eyes and looked over at Zella, another tear streaming down her cheek.
You both have killed people and have watched people die and you are going to cry over a dog?
The dog didn't do anything to you!
I held a growl in my throat as I passed the shovel on to Zella and began to walk away. Teakkin stood to her feet and looked back at me walking away.
Where are you going?
To a place I don't have to listen to you two cry over a dog I hit.
I walked away leaving the two to bury a dog in the ground. Heartless, it was one of the words Teakkin used to describe me as I looked down at the bloody remains on the road. It was a dog, was I supposed to avoid it and crush us in a wreck? I got to the car and slammed the door after getting in. I sat back, sighing and turning the key to start the car. I wasn't just leaving the two so I could get away from the sobbing, I had something I needed to do and while they were busy crying over spilled dog blood I would be able to do it.
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The engine to my car stopped and once again I leaned back into the seat with a sigh. A bag full of blue flowers laid out in my lap. When you aren't happy with the life you have you try to change it, the same goes to the person you are. We've invented new ways to change our appearance and hope that is all that is missing in our lives. I guess that explains why I'm here. I pushed up from the seat and got out of my car walking to a building. A few knocks echoed back at me from the door before it opened to Nova, or Azrael as he likes to be called now.
Wow, you look...Different...
He gave off a smirk before leaving the door. I followed in behind him and shut the door with my foot.
Thanks for sticking around.
What is it exactly that you want me to help you with?
I pulled up the bag of flowers and shook it slightly.
I want you to give me back something I lost, I want you to give me back my humanity.
Azrael scanned the bag before taking it from my hand. I watched him look over them before taking them over to a table and taking out a pettle. I walked behind him, crossing my arms.
How is this going to make you human?
The flower cells fight the Siren cells for a little while. It changes cells to human cells.
But your cells will just fight them and kill them off thus not really giving you back your humanity.
I rolled my eyes and hopped up on the table.
Look, I know this shit isn't a permanent solution, thats not what I’m looking for, but I also know I don't want to be stuck like this forever. I want to feel how I did before all this.
So you want me to give you a way to be human again for a matter of hours if even that?
Not fully human, but yes. I want you to help me find a way to take the cells in that flower and put them in me.
Did you try eating them?
Ok smart ass, this is the catch, too much of those and the war in my body goes overboard and causes one of two things. One it could possibly kill me or two it could have a negative effect and cause damage to my body.
So handicapping you.
Ya, I need you to help with a good dosage.
And how do you plan to take this dosage? Pill? Syringe? Drinking?
I rolled my eyes and jumped off the table shaking it slightly.
Syringe is the fastest way to do it.
One more question.
Just one more?
How much to do you know about these flower's cells?
I looked over at the flower. In all honesty I didn't know much just what I've seen. I was first told to stay away from them but they ended up allowing me to win a war with Helen. I know what they do to the cells in my body, however, I wasn't clear on all the drawbacks of trying to use this to keep humanity.
Does it matter? Just run your tests and give me a shot space trash.
Not going to make a remark about how I'm not green?
A smirk crossed my face.
Nope, maybe next time. So how are you going to find out the dose needed?
Blood sample and I need to put you to sleep so I can pump a controlled dose into your body. From there I can help control the dose even more and maybe even speed up the reaction in the cells and make it last longer than it's meant to.
Wait how do you know a controlled dose?
Educated guess and that's why I need the blood sample. If I can see how fast the cells attack I can guess how fast they will attack when put into your body directly.
Why do I have to be asleep for it?
Do you really want to be awake with a tube going into your body pumping in cells? You don't feel a lot of pain now but it still would have to feel uncomfortable. Besides, at time I might need to remove the blood in your body and pump it back in if something goes wrong.
Fine, I'll...OW! DICK!
Azreal held up a small tube of my blood as a smile grew across his face.
Got the blood.
I sent my hand to the back of his head before leaning on the table.
Hurry up and put me to sleep or E.T isn't phoning home tonight.
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My eyes slowly opened to Azael leaning over me with a big smile on his face and the tube was attached in my side still, irritating me.
It's good to see even after an appearance change you still manage to look as stupid as you did before. God, why does my head hurt?
Sorry, it appears I let you hang upside for too long after probing. My mistake.
Haha so funny spacejunk. How'd the test stuff go?
I pushed up from a blue chair and hung my legs over the side before pulling out the tube in my side.
Well, how do you feel?
Well my head hurts and...Wait, my head hurts.
You established that.
My head hurts.
I might have broken you.
It worked, I can feel slight pain. Hand me the scalpel.
Um, why?
Hand me a scalpel or I'll get up and get a bottle to smash over your head.
Still bitchy as ever.
He walked over to the table and grabbed the scalpel that laid next to a bunch of little tubes. He handed it to me, a look of curiosity on his face.
What are you going to...
A growl hung in my mouth as I jabbed the scalpel into my leg and twisted it.
I should have known.
It worked...
I pulled the scalpel out and held onto my knee, focusing on healing it.
You had to stab yourself to find that out?
No, I did it for fun you little shit head. Is there more?
No shit head just the dose I gave you when you were sleeping.
Azael walked over to the table and opened a small case that contained five syringes and three small vials full of this blueish green stuff.
The syringes are full and just so you don't bother for more for awhile, theres three vials to refill the syringe.
A smile grew on my face as I hopped from the chair and walked over to the case. I put my hand close to it before it was shut.
Don't go past the little red mark on the syringes. This doesn't just contain the cells from the flowers so do what I say. When the surges are empty no higher than the red line and no lower than the red line. You shouldn't need the injection for at least five hours, you will know when you need another when the veins in your body start draining the the blue they are right now. Don't inject yourself more than..
The red line I know.
I was going to say more than needed but you get the point. Also it would be a good idea to keep up with when you inject it and when it runs out.
You said you put something else in, what?
Just something to help boost the time. Also the injection site will be red for the first few injections so if you are trying to hide it I would go with a quickie to the leg.
That all?
One more thing don't drink it.
No shit.
I grabbed the case and started to walk out before hearing him clear his throat. I turned around and looked back at him.
Why did you come to me for this "Help"?
I smile and looked down.
I knew you would be interested.
I started to walk away again before he called out.
One more thing! I need to check to make sure it's working properly later.
I'll come back, thanks.
With that, I closed the door behind me and got in my car. The sun was starting to raise. I shook my head trying to fight off the pounding in it. I needed to get home, I had been here all night and knowing Teakkin and Jason I would have a search party out in a hour or two.
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After my car stopped I sat back in the seat and watched the door of the run down old building I called home. I would either be walking in to a house full of people looking for me or watching their eyelids. Part of me envied them. Jason didn't seem to care what he was now, Teakkin and Zella had never been human so they don't know any of my feelings, and all three of them seemed to be happy with life. The only thing happy in my life right now was the fact I could still wrestle, the only normal thing I had left. I rolled my eyes and grabbed the case next to me, tossing it into a bag, and getting out of the car. I made my way to the door, hesitating to open it. I took in a deep breath and opened the door to Zella laying in a chair and Teakkin half way off the couch. They were both covered in dirt and motionless. I sighed in relief as I made my way down the hall to my room. I stopped just before going in, looking into Jason's room. He was asleep to with a crow at his window. I shook my head and went to my room, letting the bag fall to the ground just as I went in. I fell back on a mattress on the ground and closed my eyes.