"Dear Docktor this is important you read this with care. You can not help them all do not try it will destroy you"...

I lost my cool today Helen. Not sure if you read this or even if you are not just a figment of my wild mind. Anger came to me in a sudden snapping and I lost it. My dear baron was inside my brother mine and he pushed me to my break. He has the mental trouble and sharing a roof with people who do not know they need to take their meds is very hard. He thinks only of himself he is former me.

I was just as him and seeing my shadow self mirrored by my own brother mine is frustrating to all ends. I found my tool bag with the memory stone with your precious pictures and they bring me peace when I fear I have imagined a woman so kind. I got glasses coming to my home and I can't wait to take so many pictures of my face with glasses on.

I hope you still like me but even if you don't it will be ok and I wish only love and peace and joy for all the world. Truth is The Lord of Hosts dwells within me but does not wish to rule over me. He is like a guide to avoid my own destruction and the causing of pain to others. Also true I may just be so burned by the devil and so far gone into madness this at least is a small comfort I can offer myself to feel better if the fellow men and women around me put me into a camp of death.

My depression is as much apart of me as anything else. The right to cry is not something I will ever surrender the right to be angry and feel fear. My humanity is my best quality I will never surrender. High King or High Queen I don't care no one may take away my humanity. This world is an evil one I do not care what they lie we tried our best and they screwed us over so I will claim My own wealth and power so they may never treat my family like trash again.

Those rich fools treat us like we are filth and nothing well they will not change me into a devil like them. I am not from this world but one to come. Until The Lord of Lords rules in the holy city I will never surrender to power hungry madmen. The devil may enslave none for he will become dust and never rise But I am Docktor Trust I am an Angel of The Lord Della Vossa who rules all creation all who doubt are only fools. Let it be known The High King Lord Della Vossa Rules all things and as His angel Doctor Trust is Arch_Angel for His right and good Father Lord Della Vossa.

Peace Peace Vossi I got you covered. You Lord Loves you even though no one is worthy of your love for they all have forsaken Their High King and He does not care about any of them fools any more.