Ok... after reading a few comments here... I felt this was needed.

My grandmother [who I've never met, thank Goddess] was an alcoholic. And my mother fucking hated her. My grandmother was racist... and made my mom give up my brother [who I've also never met, just like my father] ... when my mom was 17, because she had him with a black guy. Keep in mind, my mom is lez, but she was... well... drinking. Drugs & alcohol make us do things we normally wouldn't. Like attack people. My godmom also used to be an alcoholic. And when my mom and her were together, my godmother would beat her. My mom drank socially... and when she was with this gal named Terri, she left me for a week, when I was about nine. They both stopped a few years ago, but I still believe I remember seeing my godmother drunk... though she had stopped drinking normally years earlier.

My mom's body looks terrible due to smoking cigarettes since she was about sixteen. And I'll be honest... the only drug... and I do mean the ONLY one I'd EVER even contemplate using is marijuana, but I've learned even it has side effects. And I don't need any more of those.

Yes... we all have things we're addicted to in one way or another.

Mine? Is music. Music is literally the only drug I need. Because when I actually listen? All of the negative bullshit lodged within my mind melts away. It fades, dissapears, vanishes, without a trace. This explains it [from the YouTube vid above, my fave artist, enya] --

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Malegnius -- 10 months ago

There is actually. You feel the music a lot more. Yesterday I smoked and put on Memory of trees. I could literally feel the energy moving around my body. It was incredible. Wonderful artist.
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Mac Bry -- 10 months ago

Believe me. I breathe music. And I'm straight edge. I'm not preaching, because I honestly believe everyone has their own things that make them feel good. Music is all I need. When I walk to the park w/ my headphones & just swing & listen to the music, that is euphoria to me. And I couldn't imagine being motivated to do most of the things I do if it weren't for music, in ALL of its forms, whether that be rock, rap, country, pop, new age, new wave or whatever. Music IS my drug. Everyone has one.


TheSandeteranians -- 5 months ago

Straight edge. .



Mac Bry -- 4 minutes ago

I'm not a "".

I'm bi.
And androgynous.
Get it right.

<3



Andrew Wonsmos -- 5 months ago

I don't think that could have been worded any better.
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Mac Bry -- 1 second ago

Thank you, seriously... someone else left this hateful comment, calling me a "", right below yours... I know it's been five months, but you replied to mine five months later... hoping it's ok. >.< But... thank you. I honestly appreciate it. And I hope you've been doing splendidly.

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Someone said on the forum that there was "no reason" to obstain from drugs & alcohol... I have a reason. Because I don't want to end up the same way so many others I've known have. I'm already bad off enough, as is clear by now. All I have to do is take care of myself. And iAm slowly working on that. And the only "drug" I need, besides my bi-polar meds, are a pair of headphones... and pretty much any song under the sun. And as I mentioned on Y.T. ... when I go to the park and just swing, or just get out and walk, or dance... when I'm listening to music and being active... iAm in heaven.

No drugs needed.

<3

p.s. ~ besides... thanks to my bi-polar, i_Already act like I'm on drugs much of the time anywayz. >.< It's strange... most people act odd when they take drugs. I act odd when I DON'T take mine... :3

No one gives a fuck why you're straight edge

... I was simply addressing the conversation that was in another thread, which made it seem as if there was no reason to be.

Thank you for cursing at me for no reason, though... definitely helps my attitude...



EDiT: And btw? When I saw your pic base... I seriously thought you had to be a cool guy.

But whatever. Take care.



There. Updated the title. That better?

You don't need to respond to a thread with a separate thread.

I also don't understand how despite us all having told you multiple times that we aren't interested in anyone's life stories you continue to post shit about yourself OOC.

For the record, when you saw my pic base and thought I must be a cool guy you were right... but I am also a well renowned cunt.

Groovy.

So was Scott Carr in WWG.

I was banned due to getting into an argument with him.

I'm not going to allow that to happen again.

Take care.



Listening to the Jurrasic Park theme... slowed down by about 10000%.

It's like one Enya song... that lasts an hour.

Negativity is nowhere in sight.

<3

This is what I am talking about, we don't care what YOU are doing. So quit using us a twitter feed.

You won't be banned for arguing with me as I tend to just do a good job of being generally grumpy and pointing out the obvious.

You could be banned for being rather irritating and misusing the website in general though in my opinion.

Ah.

Sorry for posting what song I'm listening to.

... though... people do that all the time on forums.

But ok.

You also don't need to try and explain yourself someone criticises what you're saying.

He did the same shit here: http://www.efedknights.com/boards/index.php?board=7.40

But they banned him in seemingly a few days. Seriously, I hate being this damn negative, but I'm tired of this guy's mug flooding the boards with nonsensical shit. It's just god damn exhausting to see the side bar look like this...

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September 2013 and May 2019 Star of the Month
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... I'm trying to keep my composure. Seriously, I just turned what Archie was saying into a joke.

Any chance you guys could lay off me if I sign a contract stating I'll be good... in BLOOD?

... any chance at all?

:^/

We'll "lay off of you", when you give us a reason to.

I just don't really think you understand what we are all trying to say.

We aren't all against you for any reason other than you're making a twat of yourself.

I tried to help and you threw it back in my face.

You continue to do exactly the opposite of what everyone is saying, and then you try and make it seem like you're the victim.

... the only help you're giving me is telling me to change my character and cut my work short. Neither of those things are my problem. My problem is my attitude, as Alex made me realize. Which is what I'm working on.

It's like those that told me I need to take marijuana. I don't. I just need to take care of myself. And listen to music. Which is what I'm doing.

I'm not yelling, I'm not cussing, I'm not losing my cool.

I'm not going to make this into anything more than it is.

I'm going to focus on my writing.

Thank you.

We also told you to stop bringing up your own personal problems etc. Stop discussing your life, stop mentioning music, meds, music whatever, I couldn't give a fuck...

Your turning this place into your own personal auto-biography.

The problem is you make like 5000 threads everyday and you feel justified by saying ''I'll just focus on writing''.

As Archie said, this isn't your twitter feed... no one gives a shit about your personal life we're all here to just have fun.

@Archie --

... There are multiple music threads.

I mention meds because that's how I combat the attitude I've had recently.

I'm TRYING to stop bringing up my life. This thread was simply created because I felt it wouldn't harm anything to have one place where I could discuss this, as opposed to how every other place is talking about how great drugs are.

But ok.

As you wish.

Carry on.

Ya bloody pillock...

All I wanna do...Is wake up, get a cup of coffee, get on the site, enjoy the well written promos and write.

Not read a fucking diary.

It ain't the time, the place nor the people who FUCKING CARE!

.....

@Cam --

... and it's not 10000.

As far as I can tell, this is the third one I've made that has to do with my personal life.

And it's the last, I can assure you.

I just thought it would be ok to discuss this, as opposed to how great drugs are... but nevermind.

I'm sorry.

then talk about music on the audio thread.

You can just apologize for your shitty attitude rather than explaining it with a life story.

Micah... I understand.

I do. And I'm sorry.

I promise this is the last one I'll make that has anything to do with my personal life.

You and Alex are literally the main ones I don't want to be upset with me...

So I'm sorry.

You have also written nearly posts as me in the two days you have been here and I have been here for three months (on this account).

@Archie--

... and this thread wasn't made to apologize.

It was made to explain why I'm straight edge, as opposed to how everyone else is.

But I'm done with that.

Again, I apologize for bringing up my personal life.



EDiT: And I'll take care of that. That's why I always try to merge my posts. I'm sorry.



EDiT2: Ok... I did take a piece of your advice. I just deleted 22 posts, bringing me down from 222 to 200. Those are all the multiple posts I could find when I looked through the threads I myself posted. I could do more... but I don't want to spend my time doing that when I could be working on writing. Or sleeping, which is what I should have done a long time ago... anywayz. I hope that shows something to you...

It had actually been twelve days, btw... now 13.

Just saying.

Love ya, Arch'. <3