Because I wasn't planning to say good-bye. Look Damien, I get you being hurt, I really do, but some things you can not tag along to. Sometimes to protect you and everyone else I have to do what I have to do and leave you wondering if I'll come back.

I looked away from him, my eyes dancing over the door and hearing the rain beat on the windows.

I don't understand why you would think I could say good-bye to you anyway. I promised to be by your side and I tried to be. If anyone is saying good-bye here, it is you.

I rolled my eyes, fighting back the heat in my body, the tears that were right behind my eyes.

Maybe I was wrong in coming back, coming back to you. Maybe I should have stayed gone, that's what you thought of me to do is it not? You thought I would leave you and not come back?

I pushed past Damien and put my hand on the door.

I love you. I don't say it to make conversation, I don't say it to fill space, I say it only when I mean it.

My eyes danced on the door again as I closed my eyes, fighting the tear that made it's way down my cheek. I opened my eyes once more and ran my finger across where the tear was. A smirk crossed my face as I looked down and over to the side.

If you can't trust that I'm not like everyone else, if you can't trust that I'm leaving for everyone's benefit, then I guess I lose you. But you know what Damien, losing you is better than watching you die. If it's what you want, if you wish it so much and worry so much, I will leave tonight and not come back to you. Just say the words.